Well, my update is not so great today - my friends Gram died today; I was with her and I held her hand while she took her last breath. It was quite an experience and I don't know if she realized I was there, I am glad she wasn't alone; her immediate family could not be there and believe me they had rallied around for the past week, I just happen to be a morning person and went in to see her early. I wasn't there to hold my mom's hand when she died (two years ago also in February), and a dear friend was there with her; I will forever be grateful that she was there and my mom wasn't alone on her last night and she did have a friend with her when she took her last breath. It has been a rough couple of months being out of work and having a lot of time on my hands to be with myself and think and lament and cry and realize how alone I am. I do have great friends so I am fortunate in that respect, I do have a pretty decent life and have certainly lived my life and had so...